in your dreams, aween.

Assalamualaikum, 

Whoaaaaaa ! I didn't expect my 2016 resolution will succeed. 

Azam untuk dapatkan flat belly berjaya, 

Perut aku dah tak bloated, kempis je......

Bila aku baring. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !

Can someone please teach me how to control my eating habit, I munch like most of the time and I stop only when I want to sleep. 

muzik video

Termenung ku sendiri, 
memendam rindu tidak menentu
kasih suci murni yang kita bina 
hapus hancur oleh kata fitnah

Di pagi hari raya
hati sayu mengenang dirimu
Mudahnya kau menggantikan diriku
seolah cintaku tak bermakna

Apakah suratan Aidilfitri satu titik akhir
sekian lama bercinta 
kau tiada di hari mulia

Keampunan ku pohon
sekiranya aku yang berdosa
pulangkah ku menanti mu oh sayang
ku menunggu mu di hari raya

Hope still not too late to wish you Selamat Hari Raya !
And that's me pretending to shoot muzik video raya wakakakaka ;p

maaf ye.

Assalamualaikum,

So dlm previous entry aku ada mention pasal I got the new offer from other company. Benda tak best bila too many people kepochi asking you where's your new office, position apa bla bla bla. Tp thats normal lah, okay that part still boleh negotiate to share lah. BUT! ada yang to the extend where ada yang sanggup tanya :

"kalau stay sini gaji berapa?"
"RM2.5k ? RM2.6k? RM2.8k?

sebut every detail OMGGGGG THATS MY PRIVATE STUFF YOU DONT HAVE THE F***** RIGHT TO KNOW. if I wanna share, I sure tell one.

Lepas tu tanya

"kat sana nnt berapa company tu offer?"
RM3.2k? RM3.5k? RM3.8k?

Tapi nak tipu pon aku tak sampai hati. Bila dah terbongkar, aku sendiri yg tak sedap hati.

YA ALLAH.

comeback.

dah lama tak run, join marathon.

padahal azam tahun ni 1 month 1 marathon.

kena start balik ni. lama sangat rest due to knee injury lepas balik Jogja April lepas.

revenge.

Helaian mukasurat diselak satu persatu. Mencari nota kecil yang disisip dalam bukunya tempoh hari. Kepala yang tidak gatal digarunya. Melihatkan koleksi buku yang bersepah di atas lantai, seakan menambahkan lagi tekanannya.

Fikri telah membunuh teman wanitanya setahun yang lalu, akibat curang dan cemburu buta. Betul lah kata orang-orang tua, kalau terlalu cemburu akan membawa padah kepada sesuatu hubungan itu.

Namun seminggu yang lalu Fikri telah  terjumpa seorang gadis mirip teman wanita yang dibunuhnya. Setiap hari Fikri mengikuti gadis itu yang kebetulan bekerja berdekatan tempat Fikri bekerja sebagai Draughtman untuk syarikat minyak antarabangsa.

Tiga hari yang lalu, Fikri sengaja menjatuhkan lanyard beserta tag kepunyaannya dihadapan gadis itu. Pantas gadis itu mengambil lanyard Fikri dan memulangkannya. Sambil tersenyum, Fikri menghulurkan tangan sebelum menggenggam mesra tangan kanan gadis itu.

“terima kasih err..

“Myaa, nama saya Myaa”

“ok, thanks Myaa. Kalau tag ni hilang entah macam manalah I nak get access to my office. You working somewhere around here?”

“em yes, my office dekat building Malakoff tu. I did noticed you memang selalu makan dekat foodcourt ni kan?”

“Eh macam mana you tahu ni?”

“I selalu nampak you during lunchtime”

“I see. Okay Myaa thanks again yaa.

“No biggie, eh but I didn’t get your name”

“I’m Fikri”

“Ok Fikri, here’s my card. I know you would love to go for a drink to thank me kan”

“Absolutely, I’ll call you later ok.

“happy working Fikri”

Myaa tersenyum sinis sebaik saja Fikri berlalu pergi.

‘Aku Zira lah, yang kau cuba bunuh setahun yang dulu”, ujar Myaa dalam hati.

Lagu Revenga dari band SOAD dinyanyi perlahan.

bersambung....

you killed me, my love.

photo credit: google :)

Lariannya semakin perlahan. Nafas Azly semakin memberat. Kotak hadiah ditangan hampir terlepas dari pegangan, namun sempat dipeluk erat. Kotak bersazi sederhana itu tidak dibalut dengan kertas pembalut hadiah. Tanpa ada sebarang titipan nota ucapan mahupun reben merah dibahagian tepi kotak.

Langkah kakinya mati saat tiba di seleksi buku-buku sastera terbitan DBP. Namun kelibat orang yang dicarinya tiada. Tiba-tiba dia terdengar suara ketawa kecil perempuan yang diselang seli dengan suara garau lelaki tidak dikenali. Tiba dihadapan mereka berdua, Azly tersenyum kelat. Perempuan itu tersipu-sipu malu dan lelaki yg tidak dikenalinya itu pura-pura menyambung bacaan buku tulisan Pak Sako.

“maaf lambat beri hadiah harijadi, saya nak pastikan hadiah yang saya bagi ni istimewa dan tak boleh jumpa di mana-mana. Saya harap awak akan kenang sampai bila-bila”

“kenapa awak pucat sangat ni Azly?” Tanya Dhira.

“Nah, untuk awak. Selamat ulangtahun kelahiran. Selamat tinggal and happy reading, sayang” ujar Azly lantas berlalu pergi.

Dhira terpinga-pinga namun seakan sudah dapat mengagak akan ahdiah yg diterimanya. Azly sering kali menghadiahkan buku-buku sastera DBP dan ITMB kepadanya.  Sudah banyak koleksi kumpulan cerpen yang diterima dari Azly.

Kotak yang diterimanya sebentar tadi dibuka perlahan.  Seketul jantung yang masih berdenyut diatas sebuah buku itu yang terlihat membuatkan Dhira menjerit tidak keruan.  Dhira lari bertempiaran dan keluar dari perpustakaan awam, histeria dan tidak terkawal. 

Tajuk akhbar media arus perdana memaparkan kisah seorang wanita maut dilanggar lori. Dua ketul jantung yang dipercayai milik mangsa dan seoarng lelaki ditemui disebelah jasad wanita itu, masih berdenyut. 

rezeki.

Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH ;)
sebab makbulkan dua doa yang paling sering aku sebut sepanjang Ramadhan tempoh hari.

Salah satunya adalah, doaku untuk mendapatkan kerja di tempat baru.
rasa macam woohoooo !

Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH, for this rezeki (and more to come!)

raya unzipped

So this morning I was so lazy nak bangkit pi mandi malasnya Tuhan je yang tahu sebab mengantuk sebab semalam lama gila dalam bas Karak highway jammed merangkak !

Lepas mandi tidoq balik sat pastu gegeh bangun nk sesiap, nasib baik nampak my fav baju kurung dah siap iron. Ok pakai ni jelah malas aku nk melawa di pagi Isnin yg penuh kebiruan (Monday Blues). This baju kurung was my baju during my convo few years back. Still 'in' dia punya design and I love it sebab no need to iron teruk-teruk.

Alhamdulillah my singlet all went missing waktu balik kampung ahahaha, kenapa aku say Alhamdulillah sebab hati tergerak nk pakai inner, not singlet. Because something embarrassing happened to me this morning.

Aku unzipped baju kurung bila nak pakai, zip kat belakang. Pastu HOW ON EARTH AKU LUPA NK ZIP BALIK BAJU AKU WOIIIII ????

YA TUHAN, dah sampai opis aku pi tandas baru aku noticed. Taktau nk kabo malu ke sedih T___T . No wonder lah aku rasa baju menggelebeh semacam, tangan panjang serabut perut aih. Nasib baiklah zip yg terbukak tu idak le besar sgt sampai ke blkg pinggang. Cuma few cm melepasi bahu, Alhamdulillah. Thank you ALLAH sbb gerakkan hati aku nk pakai inner today, bukan singlet. Phewwww! aurat babe, aurat tuuuuuuu.

Nampak sangat dah kena kawin aku ni, Kalau ada husband boleh gak tolong zip kan baju kt belakang tu. Kahkahkah.

Alhamdulillah again.

rasa rindu yang menggunung itu pun terbunuh,
kerana sikap egois kamu.




ok, aku juga.

would you date an avid reader?

My fav book with fav drink; neslo suam ;) 

“You should date a girl who reads.
Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes, who has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she has found the book she wants. You see that weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a secondhand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow and worn.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas, for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry and in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who read understand that all things must come to end, but that you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.”

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I didn't ask you to date me. I'm just sharing this quote as I found it on Goodreads. Too nice to hold it from being shared !

offense'

you'll be sorry for that. 

SO7 20th Anniversary ; Sheila On 7

Last month bila dapat tahu Sheila On 7 nak datang Malaysia, Fiza ada ajak aku pi. At first semangat gak nak pi, the cheapest tix is RM75 rasa macam okay lagi not too expensive. Pastu kami plan nk ke Sabah this Oct so everyone pon nk saving up for the trip. Fiza and me cancel our plan to go to the concert (tapi dalam hati masing2 masih mengharap nak pi) LOL.

Satu petang aku dalam bas otw to the LRT Keramat and macam boring jaa, jalan jammed and aku berdiri sebab seat semua full. Kebetulan aku tak bawak buku and dont feel like Tweeting at that time. Ternampak surat khabar dlm bas tu, aku amik entah sapa punya. Muka depan pon takde. Flip through the pages pastu ternampak story pasal SO7, dua pages lagi okayyy. eksaited gila amik gambaq and send to Fiza. Pastu aku noticed that Kosmo is doing a contest for SO7 fans. Soalan dia mudah ya amat. Aku roger Fiza and we decided to enter the contest (lagi sekali harapan menggunung utk pi SO7 konsert tu).

Supposedly by 26 March Kosmo akan call the winner so that they can redeem the tix the next day. 26th tu ada event which I'm the project manager and I have to be there since early in the morning sampai lah bump out, aku siap set my hp to vibrate supaya aku sedaq kot2 Kosmo nak call. Sampai pukul 12 malam takdak call, so tak menang lah ye dokk?

Gua dengan Fiza hampa gila kot. pastu Fiza text aku ''esok jom go konsert SO7 tu''.
And then Fiza do some research where can we purchase the tix since its very last minute. Luckily Victoria Music Centre kat Amcorp Mall is in the list. Unfortunately bila aku pi tanya, that lengchai said tix kat kedai depa sold out already. Fiza pulak otw back from Melaka and we planned to meet up at LRT Hang Tuah station at 6.00pm.

We go straight to the venue at KWC (Kenanga Wholesale City). Macam-macam hal yg jadik. Some of the lift yg ktorang naik, rosak. Aku dah lah fobia lif2 rosak ni. Memang ktorg a bit rushing lah sebab we have to purchase the tix first. The Q is seriously long and Fiza ckp 'kte nk ke depan dulu jap usha kat mana nak beli tiket' so aku jaga barisan. Then I saw Fiza walked towards me and she's holding a pair of tix ! Yeay, ada sorang mamat ni jual his RM75 tix with only RM65, sebab dat guy dah beli tiket lain. Alhamdulillah hehehehe.

This is my first official concert that I went to (am sure Jom Heboh & Hotfm Big Jam doesn't count). The crowd is massive, not bad lah. Buts its really hot in there, sweat a lot no need to do exercise. Dont worry you wont pee even if you drink so much coz like I said, sweat a lot !!

Enough with the talk.
Gua belanja gambar satu !


Woi, one is not enough. I will share banyak banyak. Jyeaahhh!

while waiting for Fiza nak tukaq kasut, 

Opening by Noh (Hujan) Lagu Aku Skandal woi, teringat exboipren kakakkaka. 

B.E.D.A

DUTAAAAA ! Mas Duta, ngapain ganteng bangat dari dulu sampe sekarang ?

Kisah klasik buat masa depan ;) 

Event habis, turun bawah amik gambo

Cant get enough of you guys ! #SO7 #SheilaGank

View from Adam's zone. Bawah tu Eross zone and Duta Zone. hey view from the top is not bad either !

Geronimo !

One of my goals is to tick off 'bungee jump' from my bucket list. This isn't the ultimate one because I would love to try tandem skydiving and try the any scary and fastest roller roaster in the world as well. 

Last few days mimpi naik kereta down the hill tapi kereta dipandu laju gila babun sampai aku rasa gayat gila. Terus terjaga pastu pikir, camne lah nk buat bungee jump ni kalau gayat melampau haih.

Banyak kali dah kabo ke Mira, teman aku g Sunway Lagoon. Aku nak try bungee jump. hehehehe. 

Last few months waktu balik Langkawi, aku dgn family pi jalan-jalan kat Pantai Chenang tu. Ternampak iklan pasal tandem skydiving. RM1300++ . 

Aku: Mak, kalau orang nak try ni boleh tak?

Mak: Toksah cari pasai, satgi buatnya jatuh mati katak.

Aku: Ala sekali seumur hidup takpa kan? RM1300++ je, boleh laa try sekali pon. Hahahah

Mak: -speechless-

Orang kabo jangan bantah cakap org tua, nanti buruk padahnya. So aku kena pujuk and yakinkan mak ayah supaya bagi aku try those stuffs. Restu dan redha omak den, hehehehe. 

p/s: Masih cuba untuk cari kekuatan sebenarnya. Dan cari bajet ahahaha. Taktau bila boleh nak realisasi this goal. 

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kenapa bila kita tegur orang tu

tolong basuh kuali/periuk lepas guna
jangan biar sinki sepah lepas masak
tolong buang sampah sendiri jgn biar sampai berulat
tolong angkat baju kat ampaian, org len nak sidai baju jugak

kenapa bila cakap macam tu, org tu mesti terasa? we dont have maid my dear. pls. umur da besar panjang masing2 cukup syarat utk kawin tapi come on lah ! kalau urusan rumah sewa tak terjaga, macam mana nak kawen nak urus rumah tangga?

Tak suka lah this feeling. Kita tegur, kita pulak yg rasa guilty takut org tu kecik hati. tegur je kot, bukan marah T___T

1 bulan 1 marathon.

Bila dulu berat hanya 49kg tapi sekarang dah jadi 54.9kg, aku rasa aku perlu realisasikan azam satu bulan satu marathon kot.

Tapi azam satu bulan satu marathon aku rasa achievable.

Yang tak achievable is how to control my eating habit. Gila baq hang laa ni makan macam bela saka 3 ekoq dakk tak tipu aih. Lepas marahon dgn fizaa & atenn aritu kuaq lepak dgn depa kt Putrajaya pastu pi Bukit Ampang. Atenn punya terkejut tgk aku makan banyak. Muhahahaha.

Baru2 ni outstation with one of my colleague. Sat2 aku ajak makan. Dia sampai kata 'kalau akak dok dgn aween , makin gemuk lah akak'.

54.9kg ! Damnnnnn berat tang mana nak habaq pon taktau. Kuruih kedekiang tp admit jugak muka dah kembang sikit. Pernah hantaq gambaq selfie kat one of my siblings. Selfie try spek mata kat kedai spek. ingatkan Anis nak komen pasal design spek tapi dia cakap 'gemuknya muka hang Along, macam Almy Nadia dalam pantang. kwajaqqq punya adik , hmphhh !

Kalau cecah 55kg pasni aku rasa kena start puasa sunat dgn lebih giat lagi. Hehe

I took around 40 minutes to complete my 5km run. My first run ever okayy, not bad for a beginner huh? 

okay? okay?

"When I'm gone

Please don't pretend that you care for me

And don't look for me coz I won't be there for you, anymore.

If you don't mind me when you're happy

Don't find me when you are in sorrow."

Air Asia Anniversary Challenge 2015

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Its all started with a simple log in to FlyFm website. Suddenly my eyes caught a glimpse of AirAsia logo. Whooaaaa got AA contest, so nice!. No harm trying kan? So I have submitted few entries. Very easy only. Just complete the slogan 'I want to travel with AirAsia because... (not more than 30 words). If I'm not mistaken I have submitted around 6 or 7 entries camtulah I have no idea which one of my entry have been selected for the next stage.

-year end holiday I went back to LGK & almost forget about the contest, until.....

Touch down KLIA2 around 11.40pm. Nak kejar ERL to KL Sentral mmg sempat tapi by the time sampai KL Sentral LRT dah tamat service. So I have decided to sleep at the surau lah. But then takleh lena sebab contractor dok ketang ketung repair padiaaa taktau. Kaa depa dok renovate something at 2 am sampai pukul berapa entah. Mmg tak lena. Dah lah sejuk gila dalam surau. Lepas subuh aku try to catch the earliest bus to KL Sentral. RM11 je (sgt murah compared to bloody ERL RM55 tu).

Dalam bus mmg tersengguk-sengguk lah tak dapat enough sleep, almost migrain okayy. Bila dah sampai rumah (tak ingat aku terus mandi atau terus tidoq). Woke up at 11 am mmg purposely ambil off day sbb nak qada tidoq. Suddenly someone called my stupid handphone (mine is not so smartphone).

"hurm office number ni, nak panggil interview kaa apa". So I answered the phone call. Its a guy.

guy:  ''Hello, can I speak to Aizureen?''
me:    "yeah, speaking"
guys: "Hi! This is Hafiz from FlyFm

Teruih aku bangkit tdoq & clear my throat.

me:     "Err, hi Hafiz.
Hafiz: "Hi, we would like to congratulate you for being one of the winner for Air Asia Anniversary                 Challenge.You just won yourself a RM100 and will go to the next round at                                           getaway@KLIA2"
me:      "WHATTTT? SERIOUSLY??
Hafiz: "Yeah this is seriously serious."
me:      "Yes ! Thank you FlyFM. I love you."
Hafiz:  "we love you too!"

So the conversation went on almost similar liddat. You can expect me to remember all those details, do you? (say previous sentence mcm Ron Weasly punya accent in HP & Sorcerer's Stone).

Few days after that I have received an email from FlyFm regarding the event lah bla blablaa...
Aku kena ambil off day on 8th January (Friday) since aku kena check in kat Tune Hotel KLIA2 at 2pm lepas tu ada photoshoot session with AirAsia at 5pm followed by the briefing session conducted by AA & Media Prima. During briefing ni lah baru all the participants tahu sapa will be in our team. I'm in Team No5 together with Ning, a chinese guy from Sarawak. Cut story short, after briefing aku balik bilik after Maghrib aku kuar with Mira pergi cari makan lah lapaq macam apa lagi. Nasik mana nasik ? Tengah dok makan aku perasan gak ada few other teams yg pergi scouting getaway@klia2 ni. Cis ! tercabar aku. Pastu suddenly one of the contestant Paan came over and sit down to makan with us. Then we excuse ourselves aku ajak Mira teman aku pergi scout the places as well. Ya laaa dah game pon macam The Amazing Race so memang kena familiar with the venue lah kan. Aku ni pesen nervous memang boleh migraine one. Aku rasa Mira ada gtau Sarah yang aku super stress. Idk lah maybe think too much pasal game tu kot.

9th January 2016, event day. all the participants required to be at the main stage around 8.30am. But then we have to wait for all the celebrities, cameraman, producer lah crew lah etc...Dlm pukul 10am jugak kot baru start.Then each team kena cabut undi ntk dapatkan celebrity for team masing2. My team dapat Faizdickie. Okayy slumber jelah.

Antara challenge game ni as per below:
Challenge 1: Makan 14 cupcakes dalam masa 20 minit. (I ate 2 only, yuckksss i dont like the icing)
Challenge 2: Ask seramai mungkin people to sign up for AA Big Shots (Easy! kan pernah kije buat                         sales dulu so I know how to grab ppl)
Challenge 3: Selfie with 7 people with 7 different countries and upload all photos kat IG personal                             together with the caption yg disediakan. (pon easy jugak sebab aku tau how to break                          the ice and build rapport with ppl. Faizdickie dgn producer siap ckp aku power,                                   chewaaah! emm producer, ada job tak? hahaha)
Challenge 4: Diberi shopping list. Kena guna kredit card yg diberi to shop according to the shopping                         list (team aku kalah waktu buat game ni lah. over masa yg diperuntukkan so                                         disqualified lah)

Well its a great experience for me. Kalah pon dapat voucher Lazada worth RM500 boleh jugak gua beli smartphone. Hp aku ni dah oldskool sangat dah tahap wajib dimusnahkan. And then ada satu challenge tu team aku memang dan AA kata Team 5 akan dapat another Lazada  voucher worth RM1500. Alhamdulillah, bila dah confirm dapat nnt gua nak GoPro kehkehekeh ! (so far yg voucher RM1500 ni belum dapat lagi, kena berurusan dgn AA dulu) . 

Grand prize dapat kat Douglas, a guy. Which aku tak rasa kecewa sangat. If a girl yg menang mmg aku a bit frust lah because am very competitive gittewwww hahaha. 

Well, still its a great experience. Ingat senang ke nak lari-lari buat cabaran tu semua pastu ada cameraman dok follow. Mula2 tu ketaq jugak sebab tak berapa suka jadi centre of attraction. But once game dah start mmg kadang2 aku tinggal je cameraman tu. Producer lah kena remind kan aku untuk berinteraksi with camera. Sebijik macam The Amazing Race. Tapi best jugak ahahahaha. Abg camera sampai tak larat nak ikut aku lari. Faiz pon suruh aku lari dulu je sometimes. Lol. 

Ada rezeki boleh join lagi insyaALLAH ;)

Great kickstart for my 2016. 

p/s: Here's to  more adventure & exploration in 2016. Sapa nak follow, hurry ! Sapa lambat nak discuss lah ajak member lah lantak pi kat hangpa. Aku pesen gamble je. 

2016.

I wanna a have a flat belly. 

That's what I ask for 2016. 

This ain't funny. Seriously serious. Flat belly. 

Here's to more adventure and exploration !