Tuesday, 19 June 2018

mana ikhlasmu?

aku mahu dia
yang sentiasa berusaha
mahu jadikan aku miliknya

aku mahu dia
sentiasa ada
disaat senang dan gembiranya aku
mahupun susah lelahnya rasa

aku mahu dia
yang bisa melayani rajukku
sentiasa memujukku
gembirakan aku dan tertawakan aku

bukan dia yang selalu berlalu sepi
dibiar aku melayan rajuk sendiri
bukan dia yang sentiasa lari
bila ada masalah dan berharap selesai sendiri
bukan dia yang yang singgah tatkala susah
dan pergi beriadah mewah tatkala tidak lagi gundah

aku mahu dia kembali
berada di sisi,  menemani
aku mahu dia kembali
pegang erat tangan tanpa mahu dilepaskan
aku mahu dia yang peduli


Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
"Oh darling I wish you were here"

kamu jahat !

pria yang mana
sanggup dipegang tangannya
dibiarkan dompetnya dibuka
direla bahunya bersandar
membalas pelukan erat si gadis
menjadi manja tidak bertapis

mengapa risau saat dirinya terpaksa sendiri
melalui jalanan sepi dimalam hari
mengapa sanggup menanti tanpa rasa sunyi kala si gadis pulang kembali

mengapa sanggup menghantar pulang
mengapa sudi bersusah senang

mengapa terlalu berahsia
sekuat mana lagi usahaku yang engkau tagih
untuk meruntuh ego sekeras kerikil dan seutuh menaramu

Monday, 4 June 2018

rindu.








layanan mesra dan perhatian
tidaklah beerti terus jadi kepunyaan
tapi hati masih degil
tetap bergantung harapan
walau akal arahkan untuk sedia apa kemungkinan.  


Dia menenangkan
tapi terkadang jadi terus meresahkan
Dekat terlalu dingin
Berjauhan mesra pula.  

Wednesday, 18 April 2018




he has entered to my circle of friends now
i dun like the idea of them talking to him
or vice versa.
i am not jealous.
I'm being terittorial.
I am protecting what is mine.
He is mine.
Literally.


miserable.





he is not even mine
bu I keep thinking of him most of the time
my heart got jealous and carried away easily
watching him laughing along with em.
I`ve tried to keep myself strong and pretending everything is okay


I failed
Miserably.